Today I am going to be writing about a forbidden topic. Weight loss. I haven’t lost the weight yet. In fact, you are going to walk with me as I am losing weight. But before that happens, I am going to tell you how I got here.
Before I got married, I weighed anywhere from 110lb to 120lb. I think that was a good weight for me, even tho at that moment I thought I was huge. I know, now I look back, and I think how stupid I was for thinking that. But anyways… When I first got married, I thought I wasn’t going to gain any weight. I mean I had been at that weight forever. When I first moved to the US, I went to college to learn English, and then I went to Word of Life for two years that is actually when I weighed 110. So why on earth would I gain weight after getting married?
I thought I knew how to eat healthy in the US. I was very naive. I will say this: if you are reading my post and you are not married yet. YOU DON’T HAVE TO GAIN WEIGHT BECAUSE YOU GOT MARRIED. But you should go into marriage knowing that there is a possibility and you have to be extra careful. My mistake was trying to cook a bunch of delicious and very caloric food for my husband. The sad thing was I am not a good cook, so we gained a bunch of weight in bad food. It wasn’t even worth the calories.
In the first year of our marriage, I gained 10 pounds right off the bet. 130 lb doesn’t seem that bad. I am a very petite person, so those 10 pounds did make a big difference. However, I stayed there for a while. I didn’t gain any more weight. Until I got pregnant, when I got pregnant for the first time, I made the mistake of literally eating for two, and I gained another 10 pounds like it was nothing. Unfortunately, that pregnancy ended up in a miscarriage, and for the next eight months, I didn’t care about anything besides getting pregnant again. I wanted to get pregnant so hard that things like losing weight were not on my list of concerns. Finally, I got pregnant a second time, and by this time I weighed 140lb. You see the numbers just kept going up.
You might be thinking why on earth is she sharing this with us. I mean if there was a women’s bible I am pretty sure that on the first page it would be saying not to share your weight with anyone else, but we don’t have such a bible, so here I am. I want to share my story with you because I want you to know that you are not alone. I want to set an example and help you also to lose weight, but I am kind of tired of watching people that are already skinny talking about weight loss.
I want to be able to show you how I got there as I am going through. But I also need help, and I need people to keep me accountable. I mean I made a blog post called my weight loss journey, I have to lose weight now. I have no excuse. I will be sharing with you guys every once in a while where I am at with my weight loss and sharing what is and isn’t working for me so that you can also apply those things on your journey.
However, even tho I wanted to have stopped at the 140lb I didn’t. So let me continue telling you how much weight I have gained. Last pregnancy I ate for two and this pregnancy I also ate for two, so if I quickly gained weight during my first pregnancy, you bet I did the same thing during the second pregnancy. It is embarrassing to say, but I gained 65 pounds during my second pregnancy. Yes, by the end of the pregnancy I weighed 195lb. I am a 5’4″ I am not built to weight 195lb. I am currently writing this post at 148lb. I am going to work hard to go back to 120lb. In September I have an all-inclusive trip to go to with some friends, and my goal is to be back to that weight by the time we go.
My goal with all this is not just to lose weight and let it go again. I want to get a hold of my health. I am not done having kids yet, but I don’t want to get pregnant again and gain that much weight I want to be able to control how much weight I put on. I want to have a healthier lifestyle so that I can teach that to my kids too. I want to be able to set an example for them.
The other day I had to take a nap because I was exhausted when I woke up from my nap I was even more tired. I laid there for a few minutes to see if my headache would go away and that is I was hit with a thought I was NOT created for this. I don’t believe that the Lord created me to give half of what I am to my family because I am so tired. I know that there are circumstances that will make me tired and those are out of my control, but at this point, I am exhausted because of my lack of health.
I have been eating a lot of junk food, and those foods are not going to give me the energy I need to give my best to my family. It is like putting bad gasoline on your car and expecting to take you as far as good gasoline would. It won’t! So I have decided that I am going to start fulling my body with good “gasoline.” I will be sharing some of my favorite recipes with you guys and also how I am going to meal prep. So join me on this journey, and if you want to follow me on Instagram so you can watch the progress, my Instagram is ackreft. Let me know in the comment section what has worked and helped you lose weight.